he really sucks ♥

La la la la la la la.......
Busy recently. I'm back from genting yesterday.
Didn't want to make any update cause I've forgot to take any pictures although I was holding my phone with 3.2megapixels camera D:


Sorry sorry sorry sorry.
LOL -.-

next time next time, okay? heh.
So, bye beloveds.

The blogger is not in good mood recently. Kinda lazy to update anything about her life. Cause my life sucks. So, sincerely apologize to my beloved readers. I'll just be fine as usual as the time flows and things that happen. Love me or not. It's your choice. I'm pissed by everything. I just wish that what I'd wish would kindly happen and give me a better ending. I've regretted for not being the genius one but being the most dumb ass-hole. I'm not valuable, although in friends for sale by facebook. Stupid thinking drives me crazily. I'm stopped at where I'm wrong. I don't know what to do how to do where to do when to do and should I've do it. I'm insane or crazy, it's a nothing for everyone. Tease me whatever you like. Hate me whatever you like. Squish me whatever you like. I'd see through it for so many times, cause you've been repeating for times and times. Questions that running in my mind has been recognized, they're just a sentence with a question mark behind them, it's seems so easy. But why is it so hard to get their answer and just make the question mark disappear. I'm very tired for all these. Nobody wants to know me, nobody tries to know me, nobody cares about me. Yeah, I'm emotional right now. I don't know why or maybe I've actually know why but I just don't want to mention about it or even talk any shit about it. Cause it really really really suck. If I tell you, you'll pissed. But not pissed by helping me to piss, it's pissing the way I did. You'll hate me, you'll dislike me, you'll squish me in front of others. So I chose to be quiet. Sitting in a black corner where no one wants to notice about me. I'm dark, I'm ugly, I'm angry, I'm crazy, I'm stupid, I'm really really stupid. I feel like want to make everything straight. But I just don't know where to start. Looking at your evil faces burns up my anger, I've thought to slap you, thought to scold you, thought to tease you, thought to squish you. But looking in awhile, I'm dead, I just dead in your eyes like that. I'm dead by your game. You kill me already. My heart had melted in 213468912740 degree Celsius. I couldn't make a sentence for you, even a single word. Cause for me, you suck the most. When you want you take when you don't want you THROW. When you want it's first like don't care anything when you don't want it's last in not even a mini dot. You like to play. Everything is uncontrollable? No, it's because you don't want to control so it's uncontrollable. The stupid girl just wants someone to treat her better but not acting cool to her. She has a heart, she has a mind, she has feelings. Just like other girls. Why is it she deserves more different compare with others. WHY? It's just a "Why?" and it don't have an answer. Life's getting complicated. Life's getting dull. Life's getting blur. Life isn't easy as we thought. I wanted to shed my tears a.k.a cry out loudly to release the angers and the hates and the sadness. But the invaluable already body doesn't allow tears to flow. This feel really suck. All the angers, the hates, the sadness is stored in a black corner. The girl is suffering in the black pool, nobody sees her, nobody wants to rescue her, nobody wants to give a hand to her. Everything depends on herself to swim up, to get back to the land. But she's tired, she's really tired for all these. She really tries to swim and swim and swim hardly to leave the black pool. But when she's full of faithfulness with herself, she saw other people's faces, with strange sights, bad look, bad words, bad treats, everything with negative. She refused, she's tired, she's sad. Her face, hidden in the black pool, nobody sees, nobody cares, nobody, nobody, and nobody. It's suffering in the black pool, do you know that? You've did these to her. But you don't care and you just walk your own life. You lied to her, you gamed with her. I don't know whether this makes sense or not. I just wanna say these, to myself. It's just a stupid paragraph with stupid words with stupid thinkings and with stupid moves. Reject it whatever you want, I don't care. Just, bye.

Recently Imma locked in my momma's hand. She's like locking me whenever she likes and let go whenever she likes. So, Idk what am I crapping -.-

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Guys, do you know I sneaked out last Friday night?
Tell ya, It's was friggin' awesome. (: Haha. Dont worry, I did nothing illegal.
I just drank some *red wine* and, ALMOST drunk.
ALMOST drunk, not drunk (: Hahaha.

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Okay,
next Tuesday I'm going to genting. *YAY!* with Steph, Jabyss, Xavier, and some so*ais. Not yet confirm de got, Yuki, Kiiro, Denice Loi, and Fenn Ling. Actually the planning is kinda confusing due to some stupid reasons.

Well,
that's what I can update for now. Haha.
I'll try my best to make more updates next time aite!



RANDOM:
I'm enough for these.

AITE, chaos.
much loves from
the blogger: elisa.

:3

Sorry for doing late updates again. Was busy helping in mom's company, ugh. Well, I will just update you guys with what's-going-on in my life aite. -.- *Lol again*.

Few days ago,
my cousins brought a set of toys to my house. It's a building up thingies. Blar.
Photos is abit blur, cause the camera-man is not me. It's my bro. :p cacat camera-man.


AHA I know, it's childish but it's a thing that uses our brain juices - creativity right?
(:

Second thing,

Yesterday,
I went to some shop lot nearby my place, and found a fashion shop. -2L.

Firstly my mom just wanted to try on one piece of shirt. Then, the sales girl kept on taking more and more shirts for my mom to try. She fell in love with *'em so she bought them. But after that, the sales girl take some shirt for ME to try on pulak. -.-

My mom didn't do camwhore in her fitting room. But indeed, I did. Lol.

It's friggin' 2am right now, yeah I just finished watching a show in MTV which named "Taking The Stage". Firstly I thought it was showing about how talented people do performances. But, it comes with episodes and episodes, It comes interested in the other way too. and truthfully, it attracts me. :D Haha,

Lala 徐佳莹 went to Sense Café, IOI Mall, Puchong. I've notice bout it since dunno when, cause I thought it was kinda exciting to see an artist of Taiwan landing on Puchong!

I reached there at 8 something, before heading to Sense Café, I met up with Joshifin, Michelle, and Cherwei. They told me it was boring to stand in the middle of the crowd just to look at them interviewing the artist. Bla blabla, so I refused to go.

We sat down in Asam House and did some chit chat.

Met up with babyzai, choon kert! The bad/hot guy. Haha. Yea, he's kinda hot. ;) Heh! hope he didn't see this before he perasan in front of me! Hah.